First Christmas without Mom

I super miss my mom.. This will be our 1st Christmas without her..

MAMA... i miss our monito monita.. i miss your hamonado.. i miss your lengua.. i miss your buko pandan.. I MISS YOU so much.. Our life isn't the same mama.. Why is it when you were around, life seemed so easy.. problems were considered small stuff.. not to weaken you but to strengthen you.. I miss our breakfast - lunch and dinner chikahan.. I miss shopping around with you.. I miss your lambing.. I miss seeing your face and hearing your super loud bubbly voice.. i miss seeing you dancing.. i miss hearing you laugh.. Pogi seems to know that you're not around.. he seldoms talk MAMA.. but when you were gone.. he would say mama every 4pm.. i'm not sure if POGI can see you.. or he was just used to see you home by 4pm.. made me laugh at the thought.. kasi by 4 pm.. tinetext ka na namen ni daddy ng WHERE ARE YOU? hehehe.. kasi gutom na kme... mama, super na spoiled kmeng mga naiwan mo... we love you so much ma...

Will start planning on your 1st year HOMECOMING...

Nakakalungkot... hndi pa ako nakaka bawi sa mga pang iispoiled mo sa akin ma... Kulang pa yun ma sa dami ng ginawa mo for me and the whole family...

HEAVEN HAS GAINED ANOTHER ANGEL, kaya hindi na ako dapat ma sad... MA, dalaw ka naman ulit sa panaginip ko.. kwentuhan tyo... love you...

PS pahabol sulat.. long read

Kuya made me cry... huhuhu... not because we had some petty fight.. but because he posted this CHRISTMAS SHOE vid on my fb... dedma lang ako.. but when i read his message.. i cried.. I remembered buying you black sandals and violet blouse last Christmas.. I bought it for selfish reasons... I know that you will regain back your health.. we'll be able to celebrate christmas.. you'll wear all our gifts.. i made the effort to arrange our christmas tree.. ma, pina ship ko pa yun mga christmas decors from dubai.. kasi excited ako dhel first time kong mag tatayo ng christmas tree nten sa house.. sa hotel.. ako gumagawa nun e.. we all wanted to see you, walking back again.. dancing.. singing videoke with me.. cooking your specialties.. Never sumagi sa isip ko to buy those stuff because ull meet Jesus.. I cried so much when LOLA MAY asked me to look for your gown... sabi ko... what? no!! you'll not die.. good persons like you don't die this early.. not yet.. Ma, never ko pa nakita si daddy at sila kuya umiyak... but we all did.. mama.. sakit sakit sobra... hindi kami handa... little by little ina accept ko na.. 4ever na kitang di mkikita.. only in my dreams... Ma... you are well loved... not just by your family.. but everyone who knows you.. last november 1 nga... sobrang na touch kami sa mga taong nakaka kilala syo... they have lighted the candle on your tomb.. since maulan... we asked kuya rodney to approach those kids... and their mom.. baka naligaw lang sbe ko.. but then.. they were praying for you... ma.. naiyak na naman ako... andami nag mamahal syo ma.. You're not only the best mom.. but the best teacher din... i know you are smiling now.. for what you have left is truly a legacy... nagugulat na lang kami... madami kaming nag pe pray for you mama... =)